Jan 15, 2012

luv u mama :')

mood : tak baik lagi...

erm arini tade mood lagi...
yesterday mama called n told me that shes in ward coz appendix!
erm why?
mama, knpe derita mama tak abes2 lagi? 
sblum nih mama kena cancer n smpai kena operate 2 kali lam setaun.
da setaun lebih saket mama tak baek2 lagi. nih dtg pulak saket laen.
erm tatao bile nk kena operate nih. dari smlm kene tahan ward.
i tao nih sume ujian n dugaan Allah kpd hambanye.
harap sye n fmily dpt kuat hadapi sume nih. 
mama sabar eh, anak mama sume ade kat sisi mama n alwayz love u!
we all love you mama, even i jauh i doakan tuk mama kay :')

Nov 11, 2011

akugadisbiasa : luahan hatiku adalah benar~

mood : serabut n can't think anything..

heyy bloggerz! its been a long tym not blogging..
but dis tym i juz nk share ape yg i rase skrg nih n i hepy if anyone sudi dgr luahan haty nih~

yeahh , i dun know where i want to begin..
but now , i ngah serabut n pkir psal mcm2 -.-
hmmm.. dulu i mmg gurl yg nakal, suke bersosial but i know the limit
n i xkan wat mende2 yg haram..
biler msuk psal CINTA jea , tuh yg wat i lemah
sbb i tak suke pkir psal tuh n it mkes my mind serabut !
smpai satu mase ade one guy yg berjaye wat i fallin in love..
tp jodoh ktorg pendek kowt n tpkse break . after that ktorg dah x jmpe lngsung..
dat is my first love when i'm in skool..
lpas tuh i dah mlas nk pkir psal sume tuh n think bout my stdy
after abes skool n about 1 year later i rapat ngan sorg laki nih n dia berjaye wat hati nih trbuke smula
yeah i admit yg i mmg rmai kwn laki but doesnt mean yg i syg sume lbih dr kwn..
tp dia ikhlas sygkn i sepenuh aty n i terima dia
then tk lme lpas tuh ktorg putus sbb salah faham n trpkse terime kputusan tuh even pahit tuk ditelan..
biler dah dua kali jadi camtu , i tak pena salahkn takdir
maybe nih sume dah tersurat n i redha..
after that i susah nk percaye cinta..
yeah mmg ramai yg try to propose tp i xkan terime dgn easy
hati nih dah ckup terluke .. i try to mke me hepy always n tana pkir psal tuh lg..
i layan sume org same rate n x lebih juz a frend~
if anybody terase n i ade wat korang saket aty, i'm really2 sorry :(
i tana pkir psal sume tuh but dat thing always terbayang in my mind
many guys keep trying n trying to mke me fallin in love with them but...
i have to mke a right decision before accepting someone
sorry , if i'm not chose u.. maybe ade gurl laen yg lagi better dari i
n sorry again if i mke anybody hurt..
nowadays , when i'm started liking someone.. n i'm missing him..
i want him to be beside me always.. coz i started loving u..
after a few moment, u ignore me like a rubbish..
i try to be always beside u when u feel lonely..
why u mke me like dis? i'm crying when i thinking bout u..
i'm juz ordinary woman.. i want to love n be loved..
please dun make me hurt..
if hurt me mke u feel better, its oke..
mybe dis is my destiny.. i dah biase disakiti..
i redha dgn segale takdir n ketentuan Ilahi..
kerana aku seorang gadis biasa....


i'm only deserve to cry...






Oct 1, 2011

bored in the damn mownink ~

m0od : hepy + bowink ...

arrggghh ! why i still cant sleep ?
da lah r0omate da balik uma then kene lak tdoe sorg2 . hmm .

mish my r0omate ~
smlm satu ary tak tdoe layan cter k0rea till mownink . syok gyler .
luv u lee min ho ! saranghae ! hee :)
n0w i ngah cuty stdy wik c0z lagi one wik da nk final exam . wahh , gyler cuak . byk tak stdy lagi .
haishh pening pale da nk stdy . subject law is killing me ! erm tape , s0k gi library kay :)
kt tengganu skang asyik ujan jea , sejuk un ade . wah smpai kne selubung ngan slimut jea nih ~
if tym bosan mlm2 plus ngan sejuk lak tuh , slalu lpak kt bench dpan blok asrma tuh . tgk bulan n naseb baek ade my baby teman kan . nk tgk baby sye yg mne ? :)





yupp , ni lah baby sye . my bby guitar ! :)


and if tym bosan2 guk , my webcam slalu ade temankn hee . 
mst dia dah bosan sbb slalu tgk muke sye jea kan :)

sukaty lah nk wat muke ape !

muahh muahh !

nothing to say :)





juz being myself ...

me with specs ~ ahah burox !




kay lah guyz , its tym to sleep ! tdoe nyenyak kay~
sleep tyte , switdreams ! muahhh... c yaa later :)







Sep 28, 2011

nape sye sedih arini ? haha mengong ! -.-

mood : sad n blurr...


i dun know why i've been thingking deeply dis lately...
the thing bout love is i never saw it c0ming
u kinda crept up n t0ok me by surprise
and n0w there's a voice inside my heart
that's got me wondering...
is dis true ?
i wanna hear it one more tym...
m0ve in a little closer
tke it to a whisper
get just a little louder
say it again f0r me..
c0z i love the way it feels
when u're telling me dat i'm the only 0ne
who blows ur mind...
its like the whole world stops to listen
when u tell me dat u're in l0ve wit me
u talk bout us like theres no end in sight
the thing bout me is dat i really wanna let u open dat d0or
and walk into my life , move in a little closer
it feels like its the first tym
dat anybody's ever brought the sun wit0ut the rain
and nver in my whole life
hve i heard words as beautiful as when u say my name
but n0w dats juz the mem0ry...





raye nk abes bru nk update hee..

mood : biase2 jea...


heyy guyz ! s0ry i've been busy dis lately smpai tak sempat nk jenguk blog nih .
btw , hope u guyz sehad :)
0pss raye dah nk abes ! lupe nk update pix .
raye taon nih tk byk amek gmbar c0z cuty un jap jea . but if tk lawa soryla kay hee .


nih pix 1st raye . haha burox ! -.-



cam old pix tk ? ngan bsikal tua lah konon wit my adek ~







wit my aunt :)
wit my cuzin n adek . sygss korg !






ehee berangan nk jd model jea 2 org nih ! ;)

wit my cuzin . haish npe sye nmpk ag pndek ?



alala , c0melnye korg ~ luv u muahhh !
wit my siblings , cuzins n granny ~







da penat beraye , lpak jap kt gelongsor nih haa ..


muke tired tp still snyum . peace yaww ! ;)

Aug 20, 2011

~chenta n tears~

m0od : erm okey lah guk...

assalamualaikum! (hee tetibe jd baek lak nihh)...
btw , if x jwb dosa tao!

erm kali nihh i nk story bout chenta n airmata (luv n tears)

once upon a tym . .
i believe it was a tuesday
when i caught ur eye and we caught onto sumthing
i hold onto the night
u talked t0 me n said u love me
were u juz kidding ?
cause it seems t0 me this thing is breaking down
we almost nver speak
i dont feel welcome anymore
and i stare at the phone , he still has not called
and then u feel so low u cant feel nothing at all
and u flashback to when he said forever and alwayz
it rains in ur bedroom and evrything is wrong
it rains when u r here
it rains when u r gone
was i out of line ?
did i say sumthing way t0o honest
made u run and hide
like a scared little boy
thought i knew u for a minute and forever
i'm not so sure
so here's to everything coming down to nothing
here's to silence that cuts me to the core
where is this going ?
thought i knew for a minute but i dont anymore
cause i was there when u said
forever and alwayz ...

nak tao smbungan citer nihh ?
wait for my next entry kay!
p/s : dun believe easily if some0ne approach u , 
cuz u will be hurt if wat u hope from him 
is meaningless than wat u expected better from him..



Aug 19, 2011

my 1st entry ..

mood : unstable -.-

yeahh , dis is my 1st entry since my old blog was deactvated
to my followers , 
sowy sygg coz i dah x aktif blog yg lame , kne hack damn !
erm i dun knoe wat i'm going to say ..
coz mood now unstable , grrr !
someone plezz heal me , i need somebody :(



juz want to say..
i dun believe cheaters!
to sesape yg ade awek or boyfie tuh ,
pndai2 lah jage kay . jgn smpai gf/bf korg gtal ngan org laen~
bkn ape , if dah kapel tuh wat care kapel . tayah nk flirthy ngan gurl or laki laen.
syukurlah ngan pe yg ade. 
nnt yg dikejar x dpt , yg dikendong t'cicir plak..
n one more thing..
if korg dah syg ngan awek or boyfie korg tuh , jgnla saketkn aty diorg.
if love juz say it , if dont juz leave it !
jgn bagi harapan kt org tuh if cinta awk kat dia x brape pasti
nnt ade org yg terluke sbb prangai awk tuh ..

erm kay , smpai cni dulu . talk later kay , c yaa !
muahxsss ! :)